My Greatest Enemy is My Inner Me

This blog will tell the story of an up-and-coming young black man in his 20's

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

*Public Places Only Part 2*

"Yeah, I get it down - anxiously the public can't wait/ had to have it way before it's release date" -Jay Z

First things first, for those who have not read part one please click HERE before going any further. For the others, you may read on......

We last left off with the not quite 16 year old Rob Mack, standing in line getting an Extra Value Meal, when I get a tap on my shoulder.

"Can I talk to you for a minute?"

I wasn't exactly 100% sure who it was, but I definitely had an inkling on who this guy was. It was Hazel Eyes' father, The Reverend.

"You can go ahead and get your food, I'll wait right here"

Dayum. I thought about making a run for it, but it was just delay the inevitable. So I ordered my Quarter Pounder meal, reluctantly turned back towards The Rev and I directed him towards an open table.

The Rev: Do you know who I am
RM: I think so
The Rev: I'm Hazel Eyes father. Do you know why I'm here?
RM: No, not at all.
The Rev: Well I've been watching you and my daughter for while now, I know that you walk her home and sometimes I see you all hugged up. Are you all dating?
RM: No, we're just friends.
The Rev: Have you ever slept with my daughter?
RM (terrified): No sir!, never!

*Now lets stop the story for a minute. You gotta understand the situation. I'm 15 years old, never been approached by a parent, a Reverend for that matter, and I was thinking about that one episode of The Cosby Show, you know the one where Cliff took the apples and put them on top of each other and asked Vanessa's boyfriend if that was how he was with her. So yeah I lied, for fear of my life. LOL *

The Rev: Ok, well you seem like a good guy, but Hazel Eyes is too young to be dating anyone, and you all are too close so I'm going to ask that you lay off of her right now. Maybe in the future, but not right now.
RM: Yes sir, I understand.

McDonalds never tasted so bad in my life.

This was about an hour after school, so after the meeting, I head to the bus. Suprisingly, I seen my boy Big One get on the bus as well. I call him to the back.

RM: Man guess what? Hazel Eyes' father just had a talk with me in McDonalds..
Big One: What? So what yall talk about?
RM: Man he said would see me walk her home, and he asked if we was together and he even asked if we had sex?
Big One: What? So what did you say?
RM: I told him no about everything
Big One: But I thought yall did....
RM: Yeah but I couldn't tell him!
Big One: So what are yall gonna do?
RM: I have no idea...

That night was extremely long. I was trying to come up with ways for us to see each other, I'm wondering what's going on with her end, but I could not call. Hazel Eyes wasn't allowed any phone calls from boys. So I didn't sleep at all that night.

The next day, I went around looking for her everywhere. I could not find her. We had gym class together, so I calmed myself down, knowing that I would see her in. It took forever it seemed, but she finally came. She immediately came up to me. "We need to talk.."

H: I know that my father asked you about us yesterday.
RM: Yeah he did, he even asked if we had sex. I told him no.
H: Well I told him everything.
RM (startled): Everything???
H: Everything.
RM: So what did he say?
H: Well after he and my mom stopped crying, he told me that I could never see you again, so we're going to have to break up. She walked away and went with her friends and continued on in gym class.

When she said that, I could feel my heart sink into my stomach. It was one of the worst feelings of my life. I wanted to cry right there, but I couldn't because it was school and you can't let nobody see you crying. But this shit hurts. Big One, who was also in the gym class, was there so I immediately told him what happened. Luckily, it was a half-day, so I didn't have to go thru school until 3:00 with this feeling. My boy Playmaker gave me some Scarface to listen to on the way home. "He'll get you thru it". I don't think I even attempted to listen to that CD.

Since it was a half-day, the CTA bus was not crowded. So I was able to get on, go straight to the back row with no one else around, and I just let the tears stream down. Yeah the boy was hurt. Hazel Eyes meant a lot to me, and just to have it taken away like that just wasn't right. Big One called me later that night, and in his words, "I just wanted to make sure you was ok". Now keep in mind we're all 15 and 16 year olds, so for him to call me like that meant a lot, and that's one of the major reasons he's my boy for life.

Once word got around that me and Hazel Eyes broke up, dudes came out of the woodwork! It was crazy. I never realized how many people liked her until I saw the swarm o' fellas that infested her. Even some of my boys liked her (More on that later....) I was still able to get in a kiss or two after all of this, but it was never the same. The school year was over. I ended up going to Dallas for the summer, and I didn't speak to Hazel Eyes once during that span.

September rolls around, and I still had strong feelings for Hazel Eyes. I acted as though everything was cool, so it was back to the hugging and occasional kiss or two. I was going to convince her to be with me again, and just be more secretive about how we go about things. I wrote her a letter stating my case. She wrote me back, and I'll never forget the first line:

"I don't want to sound mean, but there is no longer an 'us'. I still care about you, but we didn't stay in touch over the summer, and you can't expect us to still be the same after not talking for a couple of months. From this day on it cannot be hugs and kisses, just handshakes."


Just like that, it was done. And to make matters worse, she started dating this guy named El, who was after her hard while we were together. She even told me one time that he snuck in a kiss on her lips while we were dating, which I later found out was some frenchin' involved with said kiss. I was hurt and I was mad. And at the tender age of 16, that's where I first realized that I hold grudges, because I didn't speak to Hazel Eyes none for the rest of that year. And remember this new relationship of hers started in the beginning of the school year, September, so I went the entire school year without talking to her. I think eventually in late May I might have finally said hello.

After that junior year in 1996 , that summer I ended up moving to Rockford for my senior year, so I never seen Hazel Eyes again.

That is until 2003.

It continues......

The Finale will be Friday......

Thanks for reading as always,

Robert Mack


Blogger Knockout Zed said...

Mack, I understand building this thing for your audience, but you killin' me!!!


Wed Jun 28, 10:20:00 AM  
Blogger JoJo D. said...

There you go again, Mr. Mack - laying down the "tracks" and then letting us hang like that. Don't delay the suspense and intrigue! LOL!

Wed Jun 28, 11:33:00 AM  
Blogger Royce's Daughter said...

KEEP PLAYIN WITH ME!!! Friday? What kinda shyt???

*I can't even look at you right now*

Wed Jun 28, 11:56:00 AM  
Blogger Nika Laqui said...

Stop stallin on the TAG, JOE!!!

OMG!!! Why she tell them? They was crying?!?!...*lmao*

Wed Jun 28, 11:57:00 AM  
Anonymous MzNewAgenda said...

awwwwwww dang mack...your mack wasn't so tight that day

Wed Jun 28, 12:14:00 PM  
Blogger Robert L. Mack said...

See everything I got to say is too long so I gotta break it down like this...and it takes me like 2 hrs to do an entry...but I'll have it done by friday, I think I'm going to do Nsane's tag tomorrow as an intermit post.

Sorry, too much to write in one entry.

Royce's Daughter
Don't be like that sweetheart. The trilogy will be over by friday.

Who are you, Soldiers at War (SAW) with the "JOE" reference? LOL! What ever happened to them? And yes that is west side slanguage too.

Yeah I was a baby Mack at that time. One could argue that I'm still a youngin' in the game. I'm terrible sometimes at picking up vibes.

Wed Jun 28, 02:01:00 PM  
Blogger Dynasty said...

I can't belive she was truthful with her parents...What kind of stuff was that? You better be lucky he was a man of the clothe because a normal father would have threatened you and meant it...LOL!

Wed Jun 28, 02:53:00 PM  
Blogger NegroPino™ said...

So this is the one that made it harder for the rest of us broads huh?

Wed Jun 28, 03:04:00 PM  
Blogger Nika Laqui said...

"On my MAMA, JOE!!"
I know, I gotta blend in...*lol*

There's a Baba's on Pulaski and someone said there's a real HArold's out here, I still haven't seen it tho'

Wed Jun 28, 03:30:00 PM  
Blogger Charles said...

I had to drop by the spot after you came thru and left comments on mine. And fa are absolutely right...we are alot alike. I just need you to keep sendin that knowledge back down so I won't make the same mistakes. That hazel eyes situation is madd f'ed up on many levels. I feel for you on that one.

Wed Jun 28, 03:57:00 PM  
Blogger Robert L. Mack said...

I know right. Especially after I told him we didnt do anything earlier in the day. I'm suprised he aint never come back up to the school and try to "lay hands on me" LOL

Naw she didn't mess it up. Truthfully I got a another chick that was bad, if not badder, than Hazel Eyes in my junior year, and she was a senior

Hey I'm the one who told YOU about the Babas on know there used to be a Harolds on Chicago ave, but It aint there no more unless they reopened it.

Thanks for coming by, I appreciate it....Man I'm still making mistakes, you see where I went out with my ex last sunday???....I'll check you out though and tell you what to watch out for...wait till you hear part 3, thats when it gets really good in my opinion...

Wed Jun 28, 04:27:00 PM  
Blogger Big Daddy Kane said...

maybe you and your girl could have worked out a story to tell her parents when they find out she's having sex. that way, yall wouldnt have gotten busted. good story bro. mack

Wed Jun 28, 07:26:00 PM  
Blogger Nika Laqui said...

I know you told me about it, but I saw it today, I drove pass it, I should've stopped!

Wed Jun 28, 07:30:00 PM  
Blogger Starr said...

Damnit! I can believe your drawing it out like that. This is worse than Days of Our Lives. I know you ended up getting her back didn't ya.

You men are very vengeful. I know you got revenge. Can you leave us a hint tomorrow?

Wed Jun 28, 09:43:00 PM  
Blogger Robert L. Mack said...

Big Daddy Kane
Thanks for stopping by. "Ain't no half steppin". LOL...sorry
Man this was like 11 years ago and I wasn't expecting Daddy Rev to roll up on me like that...and then he got me with the whole "i've been following" deal too. And I think he told her that he knew and she didn't deny, versus her actually telling.

Saturday, we could eat some baba's.

Echo the Vixen
Well, to give a hint, Hmm lets just tommorrow!...LOL...I won't necessarily say I got back at her.

Thu Jun 29, 09:02:00 AM  
Anonymous Tiger said...

You can't keep me hanging me like that. That was good, I think you missed your calling as a writer.

Wed Jul 05, 07:43:00 PM  

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