My Greatest Enemy is My Inner Me

This blog will tell the story of an up-and-coming young black man in his 20's

Friday, May 26, 2006

26 years and 365 days............

Alright so this is the last day I'll be 26 forever....the year went by very quickly. It seems like just a few months ago I was in Dallas chillin with Smooth, Tiger, and his D-town peeps.....I was tipsy off of Hypnotiq and Sprite (something I hate to admit on my blog, but hey I'm not a drinker) and my cousins tell me I was going around asking "who wanted to fuck".....LOL.........


But back to 2006........I'm still fighting with myself, still trying to find my niche in life, still trying to be comfortable in my own skin, still trying to "find myself"........I guess what I would like to know from the masses is, is anyone else going thru this same predicament I'm in? I'm trying to tell myself to live a little more, especially with me getting older, instead of being confined to the crib watching sports all day. But let me tell yall, its hard as FUCK. I'm an excuse-maker. Always looking for reasons NOT to do something. My biggest excuse was working Saturday nights at my second job, but that ends after June 3rd. So with the summer coming up, I'm going to try to open up more.


So below is me writing a letter to myself for the past and the future.


To Robert Mack age 26: You sat around feeling sorry for yourself at times, hooked up with some chicks that angered you to the point where you changed your whole demeanor, but one of the best decisions you made was picking up a second job because you were tired of being broke. You almost quit after a few months because you felt that the life that you didn't have to begin with was even less, but you stuck thru and bought you another truck, not to mention that you found time to do a couple of plays, which renewed your love for acting.



And to Robert Mack, age 27: I hope you understand that your future is NOW, its "Put up or Shut Up Time". Don't let nobody hold you down, but most importantly, don't hold YOURSELF down. Get out in the world, young man. You got the truck that you worked your ass off for, nice looks (LOL), own crib, in a city full of fine ass black women....get ur done...FUCK what anybody has to say about you and how you go about your business......


Easier said than done.



And I still don't know what I'm doing tomorrow, but I really want to check out a brazillian steakhouse.


Thanks again everybody for reading, and have a happy and safe Memorial Day Weekend,

Robert Mack

21 Comments:

Anonymous MzNewAgenda said...

again...happy birfday twin :-)

Fri May 26, 11:04:00 AM  
Blogger The Phoenix aka ThatGirlTam said...

Happy Birthday...I actually remembered to come back! HAHAHA!!

Take it from me, soon 26, 27, 28 and 29 will be things of the past (because BEST BA-LEEVE the time will fly). I'm 34 and I can barely remember my 20s (I was doing TOO MUCH back then).

Have a safe weekend and I'm looking forward to reading all about how you spent your day!!! Make it a great one!

Fri May 26, 12:51:00 PM  
Blogger Nika Laqui said...

You talking about Brazzaz....yea..there's a few joints I must check out this summer. I find myself, saying the same things to myself....

Sometimes you have to sit down and have a talk with yourself....

Happy Birthday..(tomorrow)

Fri May 26, 01:39:00 PM  
Blogger Paula D. said...

Have a great birthday & extended weekend!

Fri May 26, 02:54:00 PM  
Blogger Robert L. Mack said...

mznewagenda
thanks so much. trust me, I appreciate it.

The Phoenix
Thanks. Will you be back tomorrow though? Cause I WONT (LOL)....yeah 26 went by really fast...I'm going to try to enjoy 27 though unlike in years past...i'll write on Tuesday good, bad , or indifferent.

Nsane
Yeah my guy was telling me about Brazzaz too, its a few steakhouse spots around here....I talk to myself quite often...that's why my head is screwed up now....lol

Fri May 26, 02:54:00 PM  
Blogger Robert L. Mack said...

Paula D.
Thanks...really appreciated..especially from fellow Geminis right....I've noticed that either you get along with fellow Geminis really well or you hate them, there is no in between.

Fri May 26, 02:58:00 PM  
Anonymous SandraDee said...

I have been offline for a few weeks... Damn Dell just died it was only 15 months old.. I am now the proud owner of a brand new Compaq (with a 2 yr warranty)!! Congratulations on your new truck!! I have had my TB for 2 years and I love it, but gas is a killer, lol.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!

27 & 28 were great years ~ 32 isn't so bad either ;)

Sandra D

Fri May 26, 06:54:00 PM  
Blogger Mr.Slish said...

27 huh...

I remember 27 I was living with this chick. She kicked me out...

I was working as a bank teller and made no money. Since I was so broke at that time I became a party Promoter to supplement my income.

I had already gone trough 4 cars 2 new and 2 used.

I wasn't a womanizer but an oppurtunist.

What does this all mean to you..Probably NOTHING...lol

Happy Birthday Mack. Do what you desire. Turn your hobby into your career. Something I should have done years ago...

Sat May 27, 10:28:00 AM  
Blogger Royce's Daughter said...

Hey Robert Mack...Happy Belated Birthday Buddy!!

Don't get down on yourself about some of you old habits (Like sitting around watching sports LOL!!) You are 27 years old...you are still evolving. I dayum sure wasn't fully aware of who I was at 27...hell I am still tryng to figure some things out at 32. You've accomplished a lot at an early age and you have already demonstrated that you have the skills needed to succeed in whatever it is you try...so keep pressing. Determination and dedication are two characteristics I admire most in a man...you appear to have both so I have no doubt that you are well on your way.

In other words...your future looks so bright I gotta wear shades LOL!! (OK that was corny as shyt but I am in a corny azz mood this morning).

I wish you a year of infinite Peace and Blessings...

RD

Sun May 28, 08:21:00 AM  
Blogger Phoenix said...

Hey Baby - Happy birthday (a couple of days late)! Hey don't worry about feeling a bit down. We all go through changes. Hey if you didn't reevaluate your life you would really be in a funk. Shoot I'm 37 and I still reevaluate at every birthday.

Mon May 29, 06:51:00 PM  
Blogger Knockout Zed said...

I'm 35 and I don't know shit! At least you KNOW WHAT YOU DON'T KNOW!

What's a Brazillian steakhouse? Is that a euphemism for a strip club or a whorehouse?

KZ

Tue May 30, 08:28:00 AM  
Blogger LUVIN ME said...

I hope you had a good birthday weekend!

Wed May 31, 09:57:00 AM  
Blogger DurtyMo715 said...

aww Robert Mack, you make me smile. Seriously! I hope you had an awesome birthday weekend! Sometimes you gotta put pen to pad to get clarity and focus. I pray that you're able to shake that lazy spirit! Trust me, I know all about it!!! What da hell was I doing @ 27? Oh nevermind, I know. Hooked up with the wrong man that I later married and divorced after 60 days but I digress. LOL! Keep ya head up Bruh! Better dayz are ahead!!!

Wed May 31, 09:33:00 PM  
Blogger Nika Laqui said...

Hello....anybody here?

Thu Jun 01, 11:50:00 AM  
Blogger NegroPino™ said...

iM SAWRY I MISSED IT..HAPPY BELATED...

Thu Jun 01, 03:23:00 PM  
Anonymous Smooth said...

Sorry I wasn't able to come but you know you my dawg. Can't wait till you come out to Dallas. Roxy sposta take me to see the Sox play the Rangers for my BDAY (be jelous ni...)

Thu Jun 01, 09:14:00 PM  
Anonymous Smooth said...

Oh P.S. tell nsane lee sane she fine

Thu Jun 01, 09:16:00 PM  
Blogger Nika Laqui said...

You've been tagged...

Thanks Smooth....

Fri Jun 02, 09:14:00 AM  
Blogger Robert L. Mack said...

My bad I've been gone for a week but lemme respond to everyone here...

SandraDee
Thanks for coming by....yeah I love my TB, its actually a smaller tank than the Explorer so while it costs less to fill, I'm going more often...but I'm getting better gas mileage....I've been 27 for about a week and I've been smiling everyday....

Slish
Dag man why she kick you out?? You aint put the jamaican "Taye Diggs as Winston" game on her???? LOL....
I'm going to go at it seriously in 2007. That's my goal now...I kinda lucked into these plays, I wasn't expecting to do anything this year

Royce's Daughter
Hey YOU!....You know it funny you say that evolving, because I feel like I'm right at the crossroads...Still young, but not young you know? Like I say, I'm finally becoming comfortable with who I am as a person....not to mention that my confidence is becoming better and better. But I always maintain my humbleness (if that's a word...lol)

Phoenix
Thanks for the words....I guess that's what life is right? Evaluating things all day...lol...

Luvin Me
Thanks for coming by...when I come to Dallas (tenatively set for July 1-4) maybe we all could go out - me, smooth, his peeps, your peeps and your BOO (LOL).....

DurtyMo715
I make you smile....Now I got that Kanye song in my head (why is everything that so bad/make me feel so good...)Thanks....I just try to be me, whether its wrong or right, I look good or bad....You tell the story about this 60 day disaster?

Nsane
I'm back now...I will blog more than ever..well I'll try


Smooth
Naw its cool...you know how we do it..if you was here then we would have went to a club or something....I'm going to see Rangers here against the sox on sunday with Gina so you be jealous FIRST ni..a (LOL)......Yeah Nsane is dope aint she, you gonna hafta read her blog one day...there's a lot behind that pretty face.

Nsane
What have I been tagged with??? Dang I guess I'll check you out....



whew I'm finished, no more staying away from the blog for a week.....

Fri Jun 02, 10:27:00 AM  
Blogger Robert L. Mack said...

KZ (can't forget my boy...)
Right, that's true....so true...I know my limitations.....

Brazilian steakhouse sounds like its dope, and I've heard good things about them...I didnt go though.....maybe in a few weeks....although a brazilian whorehouse sounds dope too...you ever see them brazilian chicks on BOOTY TALK.....nice, right???

Fri Jun 02, 10:34:00 AM  
Blogger Robert L. Mack said...

NegroPino
That's ok, you made up for it by showing me your RED and ICE BLUE fits on your blog...wow....now I gotta change your name in my list huh....oh I get it now...negropino...lol....

Fri Jun 02, 10:44:00 AM  

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